Desire To Control Her (Part: 64 Anxious For My Butterfly) Sidnaaz


After waiting for two hours for her, I left the beach. I’m distraught for her and constantly trying to call her. I even called Eve but she also has no clue where is she.

Oh! God, where are you Butterfly?

I reached her place and knocked on the door. Eve opened the door.

“Sana, didn’t come to you?” Eve asked in a worried tone.

I shook my head, distressed and Dev also walked to us.

“Was everything fine between you both?”He asked in a concerned tone.

“Everything was completely fine between us,” I answered him in a heartbreaking tone and couldn’t stop my tears from falling down my cheeks.

I’m extremely anxious for my Butterfly, where is she? Is she safe or not? It’s killing me from inside.

Butterfly, please come back to your sweetie master. I can’t stay without you for even a single second.

Fresh tears trickled down my cheeks.

“Eve, when you talked and saw her last time, was she fine?” I asked her after wiping off my tears as I can’t fall weak, I have to find my Butterfly as soon as possible.

“In the evening, she was getting ready, she was so excited to meet you.” As she told me, I closed my eyes dejectedly and wondered, if she was so excited to meet me, then what happened to her all of sudden that she didn’t come and disappeared like this.

Oh god, please keep her safe and fine, please. For the first time in my life, I begged something from god.

I thought that tonight would be the best night for us but.

“Do you have any idea where she can go or was something troubling her?” I asked Eve.

She shook her head. “I don’t know. She has no friend in LA except me.”

I started pacing across the hall restlessly, constantly trying to call her but still, her phone is coming switched off. I hurled the phone sofa and held my hair in frustration.

My condition is worsening with each passing second, thinking about her.

“Sidharth, relax. She’ll be fine.” Dev reassured me, placing his hand on my shoulder.

“How can I relax when I have no clue about my Butterfly? I don’t even know if she is safe or not and you’re saying me to be relaxed. No, Dev, I can’t relax,”

Eve shouted, cutting my words. “Sana messaged me just now that she is fine and safe.” I closed my eyes and sighed with profound relief before rushing to Eve, snatching the phone from her hand and seeing my Butterfly’s message. A small smile of relief flashed on my face.

Thank you, God, for listening to my prayers and keeping my Butterfly safe.

But why didn’t she message me? Where is she? Why did she disappear like this? Why did she only message Eve?

All these questions started revolving in my mind, making me go crazy. I’m so baffled.

The next moment only I called her again through Eve’s phone but shockingly her phone is again coming switched off. I became hell frustrated. Why did she message Eve? Why not me? She didn’t even think about me that what would be my condition after her disappearance.

Is Eve hiding something from me? Or did she again scare my Butterfly by telling her about the things related to my past?

I clenched Eve’s arm in fury, “Eve, just tell me where is Butterfly?” I asked her, killing her with my looks.

“Sidharth, I have already told you that I don’t know anything.” She tried to come out of the tight grip of my hand.

“Oh, stop your drama, Eve. You think I’m a fool, I won’t come to know why she messaged you and didn’t message me. I’m sure you’re behind all this. You would have certainly scared her again by telling her about my past because I’m bad in your eyes and the strictest Dom and you think I will hurt her.” I growled with rage, going out of control and clutching her arm.

“Sidharth, just leave her hand.” Dev shrieked, trying to remove my hand. I left Eve’s hand as soon as I realised that I’m doing wrong with her because of my anger. I felt a pang of guilt when I saw tears in Eve’s eyes.

Shit! I shouldn’t have shouted at her.

“Dev, trust me I didn’t do anything and I don’t know where she is.” She told Dev and tears trickled down her cheeks.

Ohh god! What I have done in my anger?

“I trust you, baby, stop crying.” Dev wiped her tears before engulfing Eve’s in his arms.

He glared at me. “Sidharth, I know you’re worried for Sana but it doesn’t mean you’ll shout at Eve like this.”

I stared at them with guilt in my eyes. “I’m sorry!” I apologised and just hurried out as I didn’t want to hurt anybody anymore because of my anger.

I’m not in a state of thinking properly right now. I’m not understanding why the hell Butterfly disappeared like this all of sudden.

I spent the whole night, drinking, wondering about her and constantly trying to call her. Even I tried to distract my mind by painting but couldn’t do it. Thoughts of my Butterfly weren’t going out of mind.

Now it’s morning time and I’m still sitting at the bar counter, my eyes are fixed at the door in the hope that she can come here anytime. My mind has stopped working. I just want to see my Butterfly as I won’t get relief until I see her fine with my eyes. I’m going insane to see her again.

And finally, my hope won and she arrived.

As I saw her standing at the door, I just rushed to her and engulfed her in my arms. I sighed with relief and felt like I got my breath back after taking my world in my arms. I felt alive after a long day which was like a year for me. I kissed her temple and thanked God for sending her back to me. I just can’t imagine my life without her. One day without her is like so many ages for me. When she isn’t around me, I feel so lost and lonely. No matter what I’ll never let her go away from me because now I’m nothing without her. She is my whole fucking world. A life without her for me is like living without a soul.

“Where were you, Butterfly? Why did you disappear? You know what was my condition. I was thinking about you like you a crazy person.” I asked, hugging her tighter and tighter and burying her into me, my lips are drawn up to a contented smile.

“Did you want to take the revenge of mine one week back ago disappearance?” I asked her after breaking the hug. She is just staring at me unblinkingly with immense pain in her eyes.

What happened to her? I’m not understanding. Why she is so upset?

“Say something, Butterfly, please.” I requested after clasping her face. “You’re scaring me.”

She is standing like a lifeless soul and it’s killing me. What happened to my cheerful Butterfly?

Tears trickled down her cheeks. “I can’t stay with you anymore.” She finally broke the silence and uttered in a sorrowful voice, falling the bomb over me. I stared at her in bewilder.

Everything was fine between us, then what happened to her in just one day that now she doesn’t want to stay with me? I wondered, staring at her with a slight-open mouth. I’m in a state of utter shock after listening to those words from her mouth.

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