Love Or Sin (Part : 10 He lives in her soul)


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Nandini and Shivansh were sitting outside of the ICU. They were relieved after knowing that Manik was out of danger. They both were feeling like they got their life back after death. When Manik had been fighting for his life, that few hours were like so many years for them. It was getting difficult for them to spend every single second. Now they were waiting for him to get his conscious back.

“I just come.” Nandini got up and spoke looking at Shivansh. He looked at her and just nodded his head.

After a few minutes, Nandini came back holding the glass of water in her hand. Shivansh was sitting resting his head against the wall and his eyes were staring straight blankly.

“Shivansh have some water.” She stood in front of him and held out the glass of water in front of his face.

“I don’t want anything until Manik regain his conscious.” Shivansh looked at the glass of water and then spoke after looking at her. He also sided away the glass with his hand. Nandini didn’t force him because she could understand his condition very well. Because she was going through the same condition. At that time they only wanted to see Manik fine.

“Shivansh, how is Manik ?” Then they both heard Cabir’s voice. He was strolling toward them and his eyes were brimmed with tears. Mukti was also coming with him. Her eyes were red and tears were constantly cascading down her cheeks. They rushed to the hospital as soon as they received the message from Shivansh.

“Shivansh, Ma-Manik, Is he-Is he alright?” Mukti asked in crying tone and she was stammering. Cabir was also looking at Shivansh for the answer.

“Guy, relax. The doctor said that now he is out of danger.” Shivansh informed them, getting up from the bench. Cabir and Mukti took a breath of relief after listening to his words.

Mukti was still crying. She sobbed and spoke, “I got so much scared for him.” Shivansh took Mukti in his arms and hugged her to make her feel better. Mukti wrapped her arms around him. She shut her eyes and few fresh tears rolled down from her eyes.

“He will be fine, Mukti, Stop crying.” They broke the hug and Shivansh spoke, wiping her tears with his hands. She nodded her head, wiping off her tears herself with the back of her palm.

Few hours passed away. It was night time. Nobody had eaten anything yet. They were just waiting for Manik to wake up. Nandini, Cabir and Mukti were sitting while Shivansh was roaming in the corridors. He was getting restless. Nobody was allowed to meet him in ICU.

Inside the ICU. Manik slowly opened his eyes. He blinked his eyes for few times to adjust them in light. He hissed when he felt a sharp pain in his head. He looked around and immediately understood that he was in the hospital room. He tried to remember how he reached here. He tried to get up but his body was not allowing him because of the weakness.

The nurse saw him and immediately walked toward him.

“What happened to me ?” Manik asked from the nurse.

“Sir, relax. Don’t move. Your wounds are fresh. If you move, it will hurt you.” The nurse said, holding him from his shoulders when he was trying to get up.

“I just come after calling the doctor.” The nurse walked out from the room saying this. In a few minutes, Manik remembered everything clearly that how he met with an accident. He was so lost in thinking about the complications of his life and he didn’t notice a truck was approaching toward his car in full speed. When he finally noticed the truck, he immediately rotated the steering of the car and his car crashed with the tree.

The nurse walked outside. Shivansh saw him and immediately ran to ask from her about Manik. Nandini, Cabir and Mukti also rushed toward them after getting up.

“He just regained his conscious. I am going to call the Doctor.” The nurse informed them and Shivansh sighed. Nandini took a deep breath of relief, closing her eyes. She just felt like to run inside to meet him.

“Can we-Can we meet him ?” Mukti asked, getting restless to meet Manik. Everybody was getting restless to meet him. The nurse left after nodding her head. Then they all just immediately rushed toward the ICU to meet Manik. Shivansh opened the door and stepped inside first. After that Mukti and Cabir.

Nandini was also just about to step inside the ICU but stopped herself on the door only, because she knew she would not able to control her emotions in front of him. She wanted to meet him badly but couldn’t meet him. She cried holding the handle of the door and looked inside through the glass, having tears in her eyes. She could only watch him from far away. She could only love him from away. She could love him, but she could never express.

“Manik, you scared us a lot. You don’t have any idea what was my condition when I came to know that you met with an accident.” Shivansh spoke hugging Manik tightly. Manik just put his one hand on his back, his other hand was fractured.

They broke the hug. Manik was getting restless. He wasn’t feeling good. His eyes were finding her. His soul was getting desperate to see her. He could feel her presence. He could feel that she was near him. But where she was?

“Manik, now you just get well soon. We all are going to take your class after that.” Cabir spoke in fun tone to change the atmosphere.

“Yes, Cabir is saying right, Manik, and you have to share your all the problems with us.” Mukti said sternly and Manik closed his eyes dejectedly because if he wanted also then too he couldn’t share his problem with them. He knew they were his true friend. But if anybody comes to know that what he felt for Nandini then nothing would remain the same like before. He would lose his best friend who was his life. He would hurt him and he never wanted to become the reason of his pain. The person who had always become the reason of his happiness, he would never want to become the reason of that person’s pain.

Shivansh’s red eyes were clearly telling Manik that he had cried a lot for him. “What if he comes to know about my feelings for Nandini, would he cry for me like this? Manik thought and shook his head.

“He will never come to know.” He said to himself inside his mind. But the truth cannot remain hidden till long, today or tomorrow, one day the truth will come out.

“You all have to go outside. I have to check him. You can meet him later on when he get shifted to his private wardroom.” The doctor informed them, stepping into the ICU and two nurses also walked inside following him.

“Take care, Manik. We are outside only.” Shivansh spoke before walking out. Manik just nodded his head slightly. Manik passed a small smile to them and then they all strolled out of the room after last time glancing at him.

Nandini was looking at them through the small glass. As she saw them coming out, she immediately went to stand beside the bench.

Nandini strode toward them and asked, “How is he?”

“I can’t see him in this condition. He is not fine. Something is bothering him a lot.” Shivansh spoke dishearteningly, his eyes brimmed with tears. He went from there saying this. Mukti and Cabir called him but he didn’t listen to them. Then they both ran behind him.

Shivansh’s words made Nandini also anxious. She also wanted to know what was bothering him. She wanted to know the reason of his pain and wanted to find a solution. Because she wanted to see him happy. She couldn’t see him in pain. It was hurting her a lot to see him in pain. The person whom you love so much, it hurts like hell to see that person in pain. You feel like somebody is crushing your heart inside you. The pain is unbearable.

“How is he, doctor?” Nandini asked as the doctor stepped out.

“He is fine. But the wounds will take time to get healed. Two months complete bed rest and after that he will need few months to get recover completely and get back to his normal life.” The doctor spoke and Nandini just nodded her head in response.

“Can I meet him, Doctor ?” She asked instantly because nobody was there and this was the right time for her to meet him alone.

“No, you can’t meet him now. You can only meet him when he shifted to the private wardroom.” Nandini became disheartened because she badly wanted to meet him.

“Please, doctor. Just for a few minutes.” She requested him because she didn’t want to miss this chance of meeting him alone.

“Okay, just for few minutes.” She sighed as the doctor permitted her to meet him. The doctor left and She immediately rushed into the ICU without wasting even a single second.

On the other side, Shivansh was standing in the garden of the hospital. Tears were falling from his eyes, wondering about the old days when everything was alright. Manik was carefree and happy. He wanted those old days back when Manik was happy. He couldn’t see him in pain. It was hurting him a lot by seeing his pain. The thing was worrying him more that he was hiding his problem from him which he never used to do before.

“Shivansh,” As he heard Cabir’s voice and felt his hand on his shoulder, he wiped off his tears with the back of his palms and taking a deep breath, he turned around. He found Mukti and Cabir staring at him.

“Do you think we don’t know why you come here? You can’t hide your tears from us.” As Cabir, Shivansh closed his eyes dejectedly and few drops of fresh tears trickled down his cheeks.

“Shivansh, crying is not the solution. I know you are worried for Manik. We are too worried for him. He will be fine. We will make him fine. You are with him, he will fine.” Cabir tried his best to make him feel better through his words. Mukti nodded her head in yes agreeing to Cabir’s words.

“How Cabir? How ?” Shivansh asked turning on the other side.

“Manik is not ready to share his problem with me. I think I have lost him. He is never going to come back. I lost my best friend.” Shivansh spoke dejectedly, staring straight aimlessly. Cabir and Mukti gave each other a helpless look.

“Are you crazy, Shivansh? Stop talking like a depressed psycho. We will talk to him. If he doesn’t understand then we will beat him and make him understand. You don’t worry. Everything will be fine.” Cabir shouted on him first listening to his depressing talks, coming in front of him. Then he tried to console him like a true friend. Shivansh smiled faintly, nodding his head.

On the other hand when Nandini entered into the ICU. Manik immediately closed his eyes and pretended like he was sleeping. He could feel her walking close to him. With her every step, his heartbeat was accelerating. Like always he lost all his control on his mind and heart in the presence of her.

The nurse who was on duty went to washroom saying Nandini to be with him until she doesn’t come back. Nandini was looking at Manik, having tears in her eyes. She sat down beside him on the stool which was kept beside his bed. She held his hand with her both hands. She gently kissed his hand after taking his hand near to her lips.

Manik felt so good after feeling the touch of her lips on his skin for the first time. The feeling was heaven. She raised goosebumps all over his body with this kiss. He wanted to feel the touch of her lips all over his body.

She placed his hand on her cheek and closed her eyes, she got lost in his touch. She wanted him to stroke her cheeks like this always. His touch made her feel alive. She loved him a lot. She knew that her love was wrong but then too she couldn’t stop her heart from loving him. He resided in her heart and lived in her soul.

Nandini kept his hand back on the bed carefully after a few minutes. Then she started saying whatever was going in her mind, moving her hands through his hair.

“You don’t know, Manik that I can’t see you in this condition. My heart is breaking inside after watching you in pain. I had never felt like this for anybody before. I had never felt so scared to lose anybody before. It was the first time, I felt so helpless when you had stopped responding and stopped fighting for your life. I want to know the reason why you don’t want to live. What is your pain which made you so weak that you don’t even want to live ?”

All this while It was getting hard for Manik to control his tears. He could see that through her words that how much she loved him. But his heart was breaking because he couldn’t reciprocate that same love. He couldn’t love her. He was feeling so helpless at that time. At that time he just felt like to hug her tightly and store into his arms forever.

She was asking about the reason of his pain. How he could tell her that the reason of his pain was their love. It was a beautiful feeling which he never wanted to forget. But for Shivansh he wanted to erase her from his memories forever. He wanted to forget her as he had never met her.

“I know you see me as only your friend’s wife. You will never love me. Your love is not in my destiny and it’s hurt a lot.” She cried after leaning over face and held his face with her both hands. Their proximity made his breath heavy and her words made his heart heavy. It was getting so difficult for him to pretend that he was sleeping. It was getting so difficult for him to control his emotions at that time.

Her tears were burning his heart more. Her tears were directly falling on his cheeks. He couldn’t see her in pain because he loved her a lot. That time he just wanted to wipe all of her tears and wanted to tell her how much he loved her. He also wanted to tell her that she was thinking wrong that he would never love her. The truth was that he would always love her. His heart would never stop loving her.

“I just only want to see you happy, Manik, because I love you and my heart will always love you. Even if I want too then too I can’t stop myself from loving you. I tried a lot to not love you and I am tired now. I understood that the more I run away from my feelings, the more they will chase me. Now I will try to live with my feelings and will love you from far away. Whether you love me or not but you will always live in my heart.” She spoke whatever going in her heart thinking that Manik was sleeping. She had no idea that Manik was listening to her. Whatever she said, same he wanted to say to her.

At last, she moved close to his face. Manik breath was becoming heavy with her closeness. Her warm breath was caressing his face and driving him crazy. Then he felt her lips on his forehead. As she kissed his forehead, he felt contented. Her forehead kiss was so soothing for him. He felt alive at that moment when her lips touched his forehead. He felt like she touched his soul with that kiss. The feeling was world’s best and beautiful feeling for him.

Nandini with this kiss promised him that she would take away all his pain and fill his life with happiness.

Manik opened his eyes forgetting about everything because her forehead kiss was so magical that it made him forgot everything. He forgot that he was pretending to sleep. For a few seconds, they gazed into each other eyes deeply, and then Nandini immediately sat straight on the stool and started looking everywhere except him. He was gazing at her like he was looking at her beautiful face after ages.

He had decided that he would never meet her again. He would forget her but destiny had some other plans. Destiny made them meet again. Nobody can understand the game which destiny plays with people’s life. Manik was also not understanding what was happening. He was not understanding that why again and again destiny was bringing him in front of her. Manik had no idea that his destiny was entwined with her. Now if wanted also then too he couldn’t separate himself from her.

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Love Mehak

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78 thoughts on “Love Or Sin (Part : 10 He lives in her soul)

  1. Yess what ever we may plan but everything goes according to what is in the destiny ♥️♥️
    It’s getting more and more curious 😁😁😁

  2. *Destiny* its maybe 7 letters small word but it’s so big thing that no one can understand it easily.. 😔😔 It was so emotional update.. Waha shivansh aapna dosti oe ro raha hai n yeha do pyaar karne wla aapna mohabbat k darmiyan pe.. /! 😔😔
    Superb update.. Very nicely described.. 👌

  3. Oh my god superrbbb wala update so emotional aab kya hoga mujhe bohot bura lag raha hain manan k liye usse v jyada shivansh k liye….😓😓

  4. God!😓

    I’m speechless Mehku!

    This story is too emotional, too Heart-touching, too magical!

    I can’t find words to praise your writing skills, coz believe me you are one of the best writer!❤

    You penned down every emotion, every scene so nicely, so amazingly that’s this a pure bliss for us.🤗

    I really adore Manik’s and Shivansh bond Mehku.. The way they care for each other, the way they think for each other happiness is just amazing!❤

    The love you portraying in this story is Love Or Sin? Well I really don’t have any word’s to say coz for me THIS IS THE STORY WHERE WE CAN SEE OR SHOULD I SAY WHERE WE CAN ADMIRE PURE AND TRUE MEANING OF SELFLESS LOVE!❤

    Selfless love in friendship, where two best friends can die for each other, where two best friends can burn the whole world for each other. Where both are in pain, one is in pain coz of cheating him, he is thinking that he’s doing a very big Sin, and another one was in pain coz he thinks he lost his best friend, coz he’s not sharing anything!

    MEHKU this is the first story ever in which I can connect to other characters also except MaNan.

    Believe me I’m loving this story a lot and I’ll pray that shivansh will also get good in his life.

    Shivansh is such a pure soul Mehku.. He’s love towards Maniks is treat to witness. He’s the person with a pure heart. I really want him to be happy.

    And Manik.. God he’s broken Mehku.. He’s in pain… He thinks that he’s doing a Sin by loving Nandini.. He’s too hurt.. I can’t see him in pain.. I really can’t.😭😭😭😭😭😭

    And Nandini.. God I can totally connect to her this time.. Coz in all this she’s the one whose suffering more. The way she confess her feelings to Manik is so Heart-touching as well as heartbreaking too!😭😭😭😭

    I can’t See my MaNan in pain.. I can’t see them suffering like this but I can’t say anything coz this is the first time I’m so confused.. I want MaNan to be together but I can’t see Shivansh in broken state.. Coz I can connect with him too.

    This story is amazing Mehku.. You are portraying blissful emotions, blissful relations… ❤

    Everything about this story is just commendable 👏👏👏

    Keep writing Mehku😍
    And yeah at last i want to say… I’m so happy for you.. That you are giving a chance to your dreams. All the best meri janeman for your new journey!❤
    I’m so happy!💃
    I love you a lot..😘
    And yeah I’ll pray that your every wish comes true!
    May you will get lots of love, success, appreciation in your life.
    And yeah I’ll be always there for you!❤

    With lots of love..❤
    _your biggest fan~

    PS~ I miss my inline comments and that 101 wala dialogue!😔

    1. I love so much meri shikhu… until you are with me , I will never fall weak. I am so glad to have you in my life baby. Your comment just took away my heart. I am happy that you are loving this story. I never thought this story would be loved so much by you all. I was nervous yaar. But thank god you all are liking it. I am blessed.

      1. Babe’s mark my words👇



        PS~ I’m also blessed to have you in my life!😘

  5. Superb..fantastic update..
    Manik nd nandini both r suffering its not any one mistake this is fate which is hurting both..hope manan found their love which they deserve..

  6. Gosh it’s getting so difficult to read ur update
    Its so full of emotions and pain
    Seeing the person u love more than ur life with someone else knowing that they love u also more than anything….
    Knowing that u both are each other world but still u can never be with each other is so heartbreaking and painful

    I feel so hurt whenever I see them in pain
    Their love is a sin but I guess it’s most beautiful sin

    Seeing nandu confessing her feelings was so difficult for manik because maybe agar usse nandu ki feeling ke bare mai bta na hota toh itna pain na hota
    Dard toh hota but knowing that she also loves him and he also loves her but still he can’t be with her …he can’t confess is more painful

    And manik is so lucky to have friends like these specifically shivansh
    No one can imagine that how much he loves manik
    How much manik means to him
    Shivansh condition was also do painful seeing ur best friend fighting for life and death is so tough

    He so wants to help manik…..he wants to know the reason why manik is hurting so much…why he is in so much pain
    But usse kya pta manik chache bhi toh usse apni problems share ni kar skta

    Shivansh has no idea that knowing Manik’s problems can change everything

    Everyone is hurting so the other person don’t get hurt but unhone kya pta dusre ko pain mai dekh kar unhone zada pain ho rh hai

    Shivansh is feeling so helpless because he knows Manik’s is in pain but still he can’t do anything and its hurting him a lot

    And lastly hats off to ur writing skills man
    U writes so beautifully
    Ur each chapter is mesmerizing and emotional
    U can’t help it but feel their pain from which they are going through

    I always look forward to read the next chapter because I know it will be beautiful as always and full of surprises

    Lots of love and hugs
    Simran ❤❤❤

    P.S stop making us cry so much

    1. This comment is love simo ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️.
      Thank you so much.

      I am glad you are liking this story❤️❤️❤️❤️

  7. you are a amazing writer m..was waiting for your update.. you wrote so well😍

  8. Awesome update .

    Perfectly described pain of love .,pain of friendship seeing their frnd hurt and love hurt .

    This feel like seeing a scene infront of ur eyes .

    Loved it very much .i feel so sad for shivash he was feeling like loses his best frnds that was the worst feel ever .

    Totally super update .lots of love .take care……..

      1. Yea, i’ll keep waiting even though how much time it takes☺

  9. Thudddd!!!!
    Most Emotional journey 😓
    Really feeling like crying sweetu It’s hurting 😣

    My God, Speechless, it was so beautifully penned down.. Loved it to the core ❤

    Manik.. A very reserved as u mentioned.. If I say he’s AMAZING that would be understable..
    Nandini.. Sweet, Gentle, Lovely nd very Optimistic young lady..
    Seriously one of the best book i ever read..

    Shivansh such a sweet n kind man n true frnd n vo manik ke liye concern bhi hai.. Manik apne friend ko betray nai karna chahta apni feeling ki wajah se i respect his decision.. But Love feeling ka kya Manik vo nai kam hogi n vo increase hi hogi..

    Nd ye Love jyada din tak hide bhi nai rahega manik soch raha hai ki vo apni feeling ko hide karega n nandini too but Manik n Nandini ek din ye baat Shivansh ko bhi pta lagegi Kya hoga I don’t know..

    The best part Nandini Confession this has been playing on my mind from the moment I read it first nd Mai ye soch rhi thi ki nandini Manik se milne jayegi ya nai ya vo apne aap ko control karegi but Freakkk Man usne Finally confessed ki Apni feeling n literally that was very Emotional confession 😓

    Sorry for this but mai MaNan ko imagine karti hu 🙊🙈😂
    That’s true for Manik n Nandini.. I started to Imagining their happly ever after, i mean their marriage nd babies n all 🙈😂 Aww this is too much thinking na but kya karu mai control nai kar paayi 🙈

    Nd cabir n mukti also true friend nd jis tarah se cabir ne shivansh ko console kiya i loved it..
    Nd cabir toh serious mauke par bhi bande ko hasane ki capability rakhta hai 😍
    Feeling bad for manik vo apni feeling Even Cabir n mukti se bhi share nai kar skta coz I know abhi manik ko galat hi sochenge n manik ye afford nai kar skta i know 😭
    Nd shivansh already manik ko notice kar rha hai uski bad condition shivansh se dekhi nai jaati..
    It’s hurting to see them but nandini forhead kiss gives manik bit relief n usne finally nandini ko dekh hi liya..
    Mera question ye hai kab tak ye dono apni feeling ko hide karenge n Aise pretend karenge.. Manik ne try kiya tha dur jaane ko but Destiny toh kuch or hi chahti hai..
    But Beautiful!! Your description about everything be it A place or human emotions is so Beautiful.. It’s just too Awesome..

    All the words n their gentle feeling, care, pain, humour, amusement, love..r so brightly evident.. Writing skill is totally killer ❤❤❤
    Thanks for fabulous Story Sweetu 😍❤
    The way every emotion was described was Superbly amazing..
    I know Emotional journey hai 😣

    As always I’m impatient to read next chapter.. Please update soonish meri jaan 😍❤

    Lots n lots of love from my side.. 😘😘😘
    Gudiya ❤

    1. Your comment has made me speechless gudiya. I am happy that you are liking this story so much. The story will remain emotional till end as you can see the complications. I have planned a lot for this story. Just keep supporting me like this. I will keep updating. Love you a lot. Your single comment is enough to make my day baby. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  10. Superb are such a amazing writer. I m desparetly waiting for your all story’s updates
    Update mine also

  11. When you love someone you just want them happy with or without you because it gives you the assurance that your love is at peace
    Both mnk n nan want that but is very difficult

  12. Junoon hain ek pyaar kabhi do rahan pe lake in khada kar deta hain kabhi itna dard deta hain k andar se hum pure khali ho jatein ho lekin phir bhi sirf aur sirf ek hi umeed se jeet ein hain k woh thik hain aur mera yeh ek tarfa pyaar dua bankein uski hifazat karega lekin hum yeh bhul jatein hain k ek aura hain jo humara intezaar leti hain aur humein parakhti hain aur agar hum us Imtehaan agar par kar gayein toh tab koi bandhan koi samaj koi maine nahin rakhta.marvellous part @mehaklovely . Waiting for the next part eagerly

  13. Its heartbreaking to see them suffering this way 😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔

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